December 28th is my January 1st

 

So there is never going to be a perfect time to start something new (or old again in this case), but why on earth would I decide to start Whole30 three days before New Year’s Eve?  A holiday that typically involves yummy food, alcohol and a lot of parties and social time.  Well here is my reasoning to deciding that December 28^th was as good of a day as any to hit the reset button on “Kathryn.”

I have been living in a roller coaster for the last six months.  Some really high highs and some really low lows.  Nothing has been constant.  I have not been living the lifestyle that I had come to love.  I have been making choices that make me happy at times, but other times make me unhappy without me even realizing it.  I haven’t been true to myself and most importantly I haven’t been balanced. I need balance more than anything in my life and I know that Whole30, working out and prioritizing what is important gives me that.

Balance—that is the reason why I have decided to just say Fuck it and hit the reset button early!  I knew that I was going to start Whole30 in January so honestly what is 3 days?  There is never going to be a perfect time.  There is never going to be a 30-day time frame that doesn’t involve some sort of holiday or celebration or event that I am going to have to make the choice to stay with Whole30 or give up.

So what do I hope to gain this time from Whole30?   That is a really good question!  I did weigh and measure myself yesterday.  I also took starting pictures.  I still have that amazing red dress that I love dearly hanging on the back of my door hoping to fit into it.  I have a weight that I would like to be in 30 days.  I ideally would like to lose more this time that I have in times past.  I want that smaller size jeans (or to not be restricted to just my fat jeans).  I want the clothes I bought in August and September to look good on me and fit again.

With all of that in mind I briefly compared my numbers to where I was last year at this time and where I was when I finished last year’s Whole30 and where I was in august.  I thought about it and I decided to put that and everything about clothes and sizes and numbers out of my mind!  I have spent a full year telling myself and reminding myself that I am so much more than a number on a scale and I truly believe that so why on earth would I want to set goals for the next 30 days that involve numbers? With that in mind here are my goals for the next 30 days:

• Start and complete Whole30
• Finish reading Food Freedom Forever and really process it and be ready to apply it to life after this round of Whole30
• Find balance in my day to day routines and how I am spending my time
• Prioritize the gym and get back into the routine that makes me feel balanced and happy.
• Know Cardio is the answer— Run, jog, use the elliptical, stair climber, bike, row machine something! I don’t have to like it—I just have to survive through 30 minutes a day!
• Remember your favorite quote “I will hold myself to a standard of grace not perfection” and recognize that life is hard and being perfect isn’t sustainable.

So there it is.  There is my reset button on 2016 and the start of 2017.  I feel like I have been here 1000 times before and chances are I will have to reset myself again in the future.  But the important thing that I am telling myself is at least I am back to the reset phase.  I am allowing myself the grace to start over again and not beating myself up in the process.